Busy

Sometimes I am busy.

I'm not just talking about "doing a lot of activities" busy, I mean the "work until morning/lose your brain/forget to eat/stay up insanely late and throw off your whole day by accidentally sleeping in an extra hour" busy.

And it's a problem.  A real, legitimate problem, at times.

The weird thing, though, is that most everyone I know does this - gets so wrapped up in doing things that they forget to rest.  Hang out.  Take time to just breathe.

I know that talking about the subject of this "busy culture" sounds totally cliche and unhelpful, but it's a particularly interesting thing for me because I used to be AWESOME at chilling out.  I took a Sabbath (AKA day off - no work, no homework, no obligations at all, actually) once a week every week when I was in college.  Sometimes it was Saturday, sometimes it was Sunday, depending on my class schedule for that term, but I was very intentional about doing it.  I would not schedule meetings or rehearsals or group work on that day, no matter what.

And.  It.  Was.  Glorious.

So I often wonder why I don't even attempt to do that again - it's true that I work two jobs now, and that has a huge effect on things, but it's kind of upsetting when, try as I might, I can't remember the last time I took one full day off, never mind one every week.

I do realize that I'm lucky to be employed, and I am incredibly grateful for that, please don't misunderstand me, but sometimes (because I'm so busy) I realize that I am only able to give partial effort and focus to the things that I am doing.  And that's not a good thing either.

I guess I'm curious as to how other people handle this - what do others do to make sure they have time for themselves to relax and be out of "work mode" while being realistic to their lives and schedules?

What do you all do?  How to you find that delicate balance?

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  1. Holy cow I needed to read this today. I just started Graduate School, and have been So. Freakin'. Busy. I don't think I've cooked or baked one thing in almost a month. My idea of a date night with Webster is to read nine 100-page long assignments sitting next to him while he plays a video game. I'm starting to schedule my showers.

    One thing is becoming increasingly clear: this can't go on. Not for the 2+ years I'm going to be in this program. Still (and I know that I am benefitting from your frustrating situation here, so feel free to hate me), there is something comforting about knowing that I am not the only one feeling this way. Plus, I have always had the mentality of "If x is going on with Grady, too, then I know that feeling this way is okay. Plus, there must be a way to handle this with grace and without sacrificing myself or my values, because that's how Grady would do it."

    If you figure out how to balance work mode and life mode, please let me know!

    Also, I miss you. Just putting that out there.

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    1. It makes me so very happy to know that you've read this blog post :)

      It's totally crazy how overwhelming our lives can get, isn't it?! It's almost unbelievable sometimes, because it wouldn't happen unless we let it to some degree, you know?

      I love you and I miss you. Thank you so much for reading and checking in with my life. <3

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